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Being that my youngest son is now two-and-a half, the immediate post-partum phase is not a fresh memory in my body or mind. However, in interactions with several new moms lately, I have been reminded of just how difficult this time can be.

New baby, no milk yet, sudden hormonal drop, limited sleep, and not a soul in the room in the same place as you...nobody talks about this!

Of course, some moms do have the perma-high of endorphins and birth and an energy reserve I'm not sure I have even on the best of days, but more than not, moms are exhausted and somewhat daunted by the task ahead with tears pouring out at the drop of a hat.

Physiologically, our bodies undergo an incredible change in a small span of time, unlike the beginning of pregnancy, which weaves its slow way into the full fledged affair. Once the baby is born, the placenta comes with it, and there go all those lovely hormones that have held us through the ebb and flow of pregnancy. Milk takes up to a few days to come in and baby may be 'feeding' quite continuously on the colostrum, creating the future demand for milk, but not necessarily currently sated enough to sleep. The cocoon we create around ourselves at this point in time can be very beneficial; however, it can become quite lonely as well. It's such a fine balance between needing the support of others but not needing to be responsible for anyone but our own selves and our child. This includes other children as well.

Our partners may be very supportive or not at all. We may have others doing the cooking or we may have full responsibility of all aspects of family care. For some women, being up and on the go and in charge of the house is just what feels right. For others, the need for rest and replenishment is absolutely critical. No woman is the same.

But just in case no one has said it or you are wondering, this can be a hard time. And just as speaking to the reality of pregnancy and birth is more helpful to a woman in terms of handling what she is experiencing and what is to come, speaking plainly about the post-partum phase is similarly important.

First, acknowledging just how hard this time can be is very valuable. Underestimating the demands on your body and spirit and thinking you are somehow not 'doing enough' or 'not good enough' or whatever form of 'not enough' that women are so prone to feel leaves you without the credit you deserve! You have carried a baby for almost ten months, sharing your nutrients, your love and rearranging your life to accommodate a new soul. You have labored in any number of fashions or given to the sacrifice of cesarian and surgical recovery. Even if the birth was 'the only feat' you had just accomplished (in the absence of 10 months of pregnancy), don't you think that is enough? Think of marathon runners that give themselves long and healing down times after the event in order to properly recuperate and be available to continue competing down the road. Shouldn't we do the same?! And on top of all of this, your body is busy metamorphosing nutrients into an incredible milk supply for your new child. Wow. I'm seriously impressed. So, let's start giving ourselves the credit we deserve for this amazing process of pregnancy and birth and acknowledge that it is (whether rewarding or not) demanding and we have every right to feel tired and teary-eyed and to change our emotions with the breeze.

Second, prepare in advance for this period of time if you can and nourish yourself in every which way possible. Meal trees are a wonderful way to spread the joy and love of a newborn and allow others to nourish you. Have a friend or loved-one create one online. People sign up and bring the food by. You do not have to entertain these people. Let them feed you. Enjoy and respect the gift for what it is. Eat well. Drink plenty of fluids. NAP! I can't express this enough. We are so caught up in this crazy production schedule that falls so far from our circadian and other body rhythms. When baby sleeps, you sleep. It doesn't matter if it is the middle of the day. It doesn't matter if it is 5 hours in the middle of the day! That is perfect.  Let others feed and love and entertain older children you may have. It's a great opportunity for them to realize how supported they are in a larger community and web-of-life (not a failing on your part!) Be 'selfish'. I say it this way not because it is truly selfish, but because so many women get caught in the trap of doing for others and think anything that nourishes the self makes them somehow lesser. Oh my. If we don't care for ourselves, what have we got to give? And the post-partum period is a HUGE time of giving just for one little soul alone.

There are other things that can help. Sitz baths, hot baths, heating pads, cool compresses on the forehead, electrolyte solutions, warm teas, scents, massage, placenta encapsulation and just having someone you trust, who knows how hard this time is, to talk to when you need it.

But please, please remember, though we think of birth as being the end of the journey of pregnancy, it is really only the beginning. It is the precursor to a lifetime of raising children and metamorphosing our forms over and over again. You have carried and birthed a child and now need the rest and replenishment to continue to raise that child for the years to come. Take it. Cry when you need too. Laugh uncontrollably. Take care of yourself and allow others to help. Nourish. The more we can accept and nourish ourselves, the more we can offer the same ability to our children and our community.

To all the new moms out there, I say, "WOW!" You are AMAZING!!!





 
 

Natural Childbirth Refresher Class

Presented by:
The Palouse Doula Association

Saturday, April 14th 
9:00 am to 12 noon 

 
 The class schedule and details are as follows:
 1.  Review the stages of labor 
 2.  Tayna's Birth Video
 3.   Positions for Labor
 4.   Labor Rehearsal (two contractions for each labor position!)
 5.   Relaxation (several methods will be explored during this time!)
  
     This class usually takes 2 1/2 - 3 hours.  We plan to have light snacks available, water/tea, and a 20 minute break in the middle of the class.  Please feel free to bring any snacks you may like for yourself and partner, or some to share.  We have worked hard to make this class very hands-on and interactive. Please wear comfortable clothing and bring a pillow or yoga mat to give your tired knees a little cushion while we practice position changes.

Please contact Liz Boyd at Willshelpmeet@gmail.com or by phone at    208-301-4735       to sign up.  The refresher course costs $40.00 for PDA clients and $50.00 for non-clients. Feel free to contact me with any questions!  
 
 

BUY TICKETS TODAY!

Kenworthy Theatre
Tuesday, April 17
6:30PM

Two Films: Celebrity Births and Explore Your Birth Options

Panel Discussion and Q&A with local birth-workers: Physicians, Midwives and Doulas

Tickets are $10 and can be bought online here:  http://mbobbid.eventbrite.com/ 

 
 
Policy is-a-changin' for the better at Pullman Memorial Hospital in Pullman, WA.
Women will soon have better access to VBACS, including more support and more options in this regard. Great thanks to doctors Bowman and Guida for spearheading these efforts. More details to come as we have them.
 
 
 
 
We have gotten so technical about things in our society that we've missed the boat for examination of its nuts and bolts. (forest for the trees..) 

I don't believe life is a technical manual. And everyone knows technical manuals only give a fraction of total knowledge required to complete any task.

The art, the finesse, these are the larger parts of the equation, the interspaces that turn out to be more important than the component pieces...the whole forest, the whole boat, or, in this case, the whole birth.

I've been working on a grant application for the Uma Birth Film Festival & Symposium we plan to hold in the fall of 2012. It will be a wonderful event, engaging so many different components of the community, women's wisdom and well-recognized keynote speakers. But as I strive to argue the cause for our organization to receive the limited funds, I run into the most fundamental aspect of birth that gets the least recognition:

Birth happens within the body of a woman and external technologies and controls will never approximate, and certainly cannot replace, this embodied experience. 

Besides which, and I hate to be the one to say it so plainly, but if you haven't given birth and you are not a woman, you've got nothing but a technical manual in your hands. Now this is not to say that birth-workers who have attended multiple births are not learning more about birth than those just reading the manual. But this is saying, that being on the outside of each particular birth means you are NOT on the INSIDE, and you can never fully know what is occurring.  Though I have given birth and you have given birth and we can share and compare our gained insights and wisdom, to say that either one of us truly knows what the other experienced is also a falsity. Moreover, a manual and experience still do not represent the truly embodied experience.

If this is the case, then to say a machine 'knows' what an individual woman is experiencing or to expect a machine to give authoritative knowledge on the most intimate inner workings of a woman's body seems even more far-fetched indeed. And to say a man, who has none of the anatomy of a woman, can approximate embodied understanding on any level is also quite the stretch.

Yet this is standard medical paradigm of the day.


As Marsden Wagner, perinatologist and author of Born In The USA reflects: small group, most of them men, are controlling birth in such a way as to preserve their own power and wealth while robbing women and families of control over one of the most important events in their lives.” 

In a capitalistic world controlled by heavily funded self-interested parties, this does not seem all that surprising. What is inherently more interesting to me is what we, as humans, are often willing to trade for that false notion of 'safety'. In the same way a person will often hand over their wallet and life savings to scam artists for the promise of financial prosperity- or more importantly, give up their own personal experience of the divine to priests or rabbis or new age gurus who claim more direct communion with 'god'- so giving the authoritative knowledge of one's own body to another seems a risky endeavor indeed.

Granted, humans are a social species adapted to sharing information for group survival benefits. What Ina May Gaskin learned and taught about techniques for dealing with shoulder dystocia remain fundamental obstetric skills for improving birth outcomes and the ability to perform relatively safe c-sections in the 5-10% of cases where surgical intervention may actually be required saves lives. But to deny the very wisdom of our core (in birth or any situation) and give complete authority over one's self to another seems to me the strangest ideological construct of safety (read also 'savior') to be invented and serves as the basic contract governing capitalistic and patriarchal societies in general. It is the father syndrome: the promise of safety in return for your soul.


So I am curious, what are you willing to trade?



 
 
Thank you so much to Tricia Wallace of Hello Lovely Designs.
 
 
 
 
I have identified with the Crow as a bird itself for its intense beauty, magic and intelligence and as the representation of the link between death and life, the transition, the veil, whatever you want to call it, it is the space in-between. I've lived in that space to a substantial degree myself and it is an interesting and sometimes difficult place.  Yesterday, I had a good conversation with a fellow Moscow-vite at One World Cafe about this space.

He has one daughter alive and one who died prior to birth and he communicates with both. I know this stands at the edges of extreme for many people, but from my perspective, it was nice to be able to have a real conversation with someone about this and who was willing to speak these truths out loud. 

I have spent 8 years working with hospice. I have seen some interesting and amazing things. I have spent my life working with energy and attempting to be here and now when I kept getting called off elsewhere. I have watched people in a similar situation be torn apart and find no solace or support in a society that gives no credence to these ideas and focuses instead entirely on technology and the so-called 'rational mind'. I have watched women, the feminine, and intuition in general be condemned, belittled and effectively pushed aside in favor of destructive tendencies. But I am not willing to allow for that anymore.

My youngest son, Noah, was very much a girl and very much a different entity up until three weeks prior to birth. We never had an ultrasound, there was never a measurement, and of course, to most people, my statement will sound ludicrous. "He was obviously not a girl at anytime!" (Other than the fact that we all start as girls, but that is yet another story). Anyway, we had quite a series of events occur right at the end of pregnancy and there was a time (although I never worried that he would not be ok) where I had no idea, suddenly, who he/she/it was. 

There is the Heisenberg principle which essentially identifies the fact that we can only be so certain about physical properties at any given time and the closer we interact with the system we are studying, the more change we bring to the very nature of that very system. In a very simplified manner, you can take this also to mean that when we nail down the sex of a fetus in an ultrasound, the parameters become that much harder to change. Ie. If you measure it as a boy, it will most likely be a boy. But anyway, we never measured the baby or nailed him down into any kind of matter and once huge life changes took place, there was this shift. And then, finally, when everything else fell into place, I got the feeling he was going to be a boy and that he was finally going to be born.


And there 'he' was.

Well, here is another gentleman in town who is quite with-it and yet still speaks to a daughter who remains on the 'other side' or, more truly, at that same veiled threshold the crow represents. And he (this man with whom I had the conversation) learns things from her and enjoys a very rich relationship with her. He appreciates aspects of both of his daughters and knows what each brings to the table insofar as their inhabited spaces. One is more likely to see people crossing over that threshold, for example, while the other is more likely to notice the physical beings walking down the street.

Does that make one better than the other or more likely to exist? Does that make his psychologically unsound or somehow compensating for the death of the one girl by keeping her alive in this fashion? Of course it depends on your viewpoint. I am simply offering a certain perspective.

In the same way that we now, generally, consider speaking with the elements of the earth as a ludicrous idea, there was a time this was generally accepted, and interestingly enough, in those times (and places) the earth was not being beaten and raped as she is now. So, consider for a moment what war and military theorists have long known-- if you can create an 'other' or simply have the 'other' cease to exist, there is no longer and issue in wiping them out. 

We deny the primal and spiritual aspects of birth, most often, and ask technology to replace what must be found within our deepest selves and collective beings.

In my experience, this threshold between birth and death is an informative space that makes a good deal of sense and is a place I have been fairly comfortable exploring. The threshold takes on many names these days, including jargon from quantum physics, but this language does not always get reapplied to the realities of our bodies as we still live in the Cartesian mind-body divide. 

I want to honor both his girls in the same way we honor the living and the dead on a day such as Memorial Day. Interesting, isn't it? How language and culturally accepted activities change the notion of thoughts?

I'd love to hear yours...
 
 
There was a point in my last labor, soaking at home in the bathtub after a long night of contractions, feeling very positive as though the final push was right around the corner, looking forward to my husband returning to the bathroom to pour water over my belly with a cup as we had begun. He was making me tea, I was either on my own or with the midwife's assistant, and I was calm, in heaven. I couldn't believe labor could feel this good and it was wonderful.

Then, my friend opened the door. A friend I loved, a friend I had asked to be with us during labor, but a friend, suddenly that I did not want there.

This is labor.

These are the moments.

And the moment had shifted so I didn't ask for her to leave.

Maybe it was all meant to be and a part of my whole process into which I had called her in from a vast subconscious/linked conscious realm we too-often do not speak of out loud, but here she was, and the labor stopped.

i suddenly knew I was not going to be pushing any time soon.

We dismiss all of these factors in society at large and definitively within the hospital setting, but my thought (and yes, I'm pretty sensitive and in tune to the larger workings) is that if such a small (and previously desired) interruption at home could change the course of a labor that was 20 minutes from pushing into another 8 hour long process, what does the hospital really do to us?

Now, I know some women do not have the same predisposition to be so heavily impacted by minute changes, and I cherish and value that. I have seen woman ask for exactly what they need and take no flac, but I am a woman that feels every shift and pulse, and I'll tell you, this was like having someone walk in in the middle of making love where the peak is so close you can feel it, but the moment is interrupted and it takes forever  (maybe a couple of days) to get back to.

There is obviously the Orgasmic Birth video which I have available to anyone who would like to view it, but I found this quote in a Midwifery Today article, and I'd like to post it as the final say here:

It happened in a London hospital. A woman was about to give birth to her first baby. A student midwife, an experienced doula and the father were invisible and silent, sharing the sacredness of the moment. At the very time when the ecstatic mother-to-be, who was standing up, started to say ‘What a pleasure!’, ‘It’s like making love’, ‘The baby is coming’, and at the precise moment when the perineum started moving, the door suddenly burst open. A female doctor entered the room, shouting: ‘I need to make an assessment. You must lie down on the table.’ The birthing woman repeated in an imploring tone: ‘Please, please, I beg you, I beg you…’ Some time later a drip of synthetic oxytocin was necessary to get the baby out… It is easy to interrupt an orgasm.”

I must say I have never read a more powerful beginning. It says so very much. Michel ends this chapter with: “From a practical perspective we are now in a position to present authentic midwifery as the art of creating the conditions for the fetus ejection reflex.”


FETUS EJECTION REFLEX. Michel Odent. Love It.